12. On the Fear of God

Dear Frazer,

Recently I spoke at length with a woman in a hotel. She was excited to talk with someone about God and spirituality, and at one point exclaimed that she was, “a God-fearing woman.” The notion of which, of course, comes from Proverbs 9:10 which I heard often quoted in religious circles, that, “the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.” But, is fear really what God wants from us?

I stopped her speaking and pointed out what she had just said.

“Is your experience of God that of fear?” I asked.

“No,” she replied.

“Do you believe that God wants you to feel that way towards him?” I asked again.

“Well, I guess not,” she said.

I shared some of my experience with her. God never forces or coerces me in anything. He is ever patient, waiting for me to catch up or wake up to give me more wisdom, knowledge, and understanding – elements of true change.

If God is love, how do you reconcile that God wants you to fear him with this statement by a disciple of Jesus: “There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.” (1 John 4:18)

Men use fear to manipulate the behavior of other men. But, and think about this, if you stop behaving a certain way because you believe that God will zap you, then it is an act that you put on when you think you are being watched. As soon as you feel you are alone and safe you will do what you want to do. That, my friend, is hypocrisy.

When you fear someone, they are not truly welcome in your life. You will not share intimately with them, or if you do, it is in limited capacity. Has anyone ever feared you? How did it make you feel? It is repulsive, is it not?

I believe that God is for us. That he would rather we try and get to a state of true change because it is what we want, than fake change because of fear of retribution. And, that he would rather we engage him in a state of love rather than that of fear.

Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So do not be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

Luke 12: 6,7

My new friend, the woman, saw instantly that, “God-fearing,” and, “loved by God,” are two distinct categories that are incompatible. She expressed a degree of relief and appreciation, because a long standing barrier between her and God as her Father was dismantled in an instant.

It was good to speak with you the other day. It never seems to matter how much time passes. Let me know how your new understanding of your highest and strongest values is impacting your life.

Until then, I am as always here to serve.

The Pilgrim

11. If Surrender is Good, Why is it Unpleasant?

Dear Frazer,

I prefer to walk alone – a fact that I believe you know. Know thySelf! When another person is with me my attention divides and therefore my energy is divided – upon the subjects of my attention and also what their attention is upon. The more people that there are – and don’t get me wrong this is a great thing in most situations – the more my focus hones into them and the situation. This is why I excel at certain forms of leading and not others. I get put into the wrong place sometimes because of common assumptions, but I am learning to position myself for greatness according to who I am.

That peculiar focus of mine is also why, since my spiritual journey is my highest priority, I prefer to be alone for long swatches of time.

As I was in Blendon Woods today. It was all about trust. As though the reason behind my precarious past at its core is about trust – that God loves me and cares for me and will do more that I ask or imagine.

Which dovetails with the video you sent me on surrender and your question as to why surrender feels unpleasant.

May I postulate that it is indicative of feelings and beliefs that you have towards God, that are dissonantly interfering with your ability to harmonize as a creator in life?

Trust, I believe, is the opposite of fear. Fear engenders control and more fear. I see now that it is through my fear that I try and control life, which breeds more fear and need for more feelings of being in control.

If “surrender” or “letting go” or “burning off” all equate a statement that, “I trust God,” no matter what form of deity you see him as, then your experience will align with your belief system, within which are also all of the unpleasant emotions that are associated with the memories of events that made the belief system necessary in the first place.

All for now, my friend.

The Pilgrim

10. Where Your Truth Is Not, and Is, Found

Dear Frazer,

What if “Messiah” meant salvation, which it did, and salvation didn’t mean entry into a religion or a special group but meant having a direct line to God as Father again? And what if Father, rather than a being that is far off, distant and coldly judging, “do this don’t do that” person, what if He were really inside of you, a permanent part of you, your Source, which is what “father” means.

What if it is the job of every pastor, rabbi, or otherwise religious teacher to keep you from attending to the Source within you? What if such a person or figure were to keep talking at you, feeding you information that kept your eyes out on the world and on him, rather than Him? What if this were all a distraction from getting to the real you, which can only be inside of you, where Jesus said the kingdom of heaven is, and where God is said to abide? What evil thing it is, if all of this were true, that these so-called pastors, priests, religious leaders do.

And they will condemn you for attempting to get free.

I can only caution and warn you against their charismatic charms, which I also fell prey to in the youth of my perspective. I blame no one for falling captive, and it may be that where you are in your truth requires it. But do not say that you have not been lovingly warned as one who was tied up in such a tomb.

Did you know that Jesus’ very name, “Yeshua”, means salvation? So then, by everything that he was called as he walked this earth, all names, matronymics, monikers, and brands as we say today, he was to be interpretively perceived as salvation. Therefore, the notion of this, not how man would interpret it, or how people would gravitate towards him because of it, but how God intentionally planted him as such on the earth is what matters the most.

People may have thought that they needed saved from the Romans. They may have thought they needed saved from the oppression of government, such as the tax gatherers. They may have needed save from the evils of their fellow men, the unclean, the sinners such as the prostitutes, lepers, and others that they cast from their temple. What of the despised Samaritans? However, all of these were such as Jesus had to do with, while concurrently condemning those who were supposed to know salvation when it hit them in the face, the rabbis and religious leaders who tried to pry the people away from him.

There was the popular saying in the 1990s, “The truth is out there.” As though it were findable in the ethers of space or something. But what if rather we change it around, as I have come to fully believe, that “the truth is in there?”

The discovery of your truth is often a lonesome road, although it is not lonely. The reason for this is because no one “out there” will tell you what it is. And if they try, flee as fast as you can, because they are not able to do so. Regardless of their intentions, they are liars and hypocrites, poor actors most to be pitied among men, blind guides leading the blind to the certainty of the pit.

Don’t come at your truth from a point of scarcity, as though there’s not enough of it in the universe. Rather, come from certainty of abundance and believe in your heart that, “ask, and you shall receive. Seek, and you shall find. Knock, and it will be opened to you.” Where will it be opened? “Out there,” somewhere? No! It is not even possible. It is, and always will be, In There.

And it is to there that you and I must go.

All for now. As always I remain your friend and await your reply.

Sincerely,

The Pilgrim

9. On the Root of All Insanity


The body is an instrument. It is played by vibrations like any other sound-maker. We begin to destroy the body when we teach children to be quiet. Children come from the womb with intimate knowledge on how to play the body. The limbs scramble agog in the air and swing to and fro, seemingly aimlessly. When they cry out it is from the heart, from the depths of the soul. They are calling out to the universe to meet their needs and using every ounce of their being to do so. Somehow, we lose this on the journey to become an adult.


But the fact is we are made to leak. Tears are just as important as laughter, although we are made to become self-conscious of both. We are designed to make sound and to project the vibrations from within out into the physical world, whether by speech or song. I don’t know about you, but I became so inhibited as a child that I’m terrified of singing publicly. I have a goal, now, to sing a song that I wrote on a stage in front of an audience.

Some think that the body is disposable because of its temporal nature. However, it is intrinsic to the human experience. If you pay attention, you see that the sound that your voice makes vibrates through your body. You can feel it in the depth of your gut. If you observe carefully, singers use their whole bodies to craft their art. Celine Dion wields her whole being, not just her voice. The body is an instrument.


The same is true of those whose art is that of playing musical instruments. We say that they play the instrument, but it is really the body that is being played. The instrument is merely an extension of that which is played. Watch carefully how the performer’s whole body is used in the expression of the soul coming through the sound of the cello, the guitar, the piano, the violin, the saxophone.


Art is where we rediscover our childlikeness. It requires vulnerability to revert to our natural state of expression. It feels awkward because of our conditioning against it, which is the first form of abuse that most of us experience.

The child has no sense of self-consciousness without such conditioning. The child plays his body with abandon; he comes innately endowed as the singular arbiter of his dance, the exclusive virtuoso to his corpus of protoplasmic puissance.


Or didn’t you notice? Were you too busy trying to smother his fire?
Where can shame be possibly found in such a one as that? Here is where we find the root of all insanity, that we – the offspring of God – would take the very thing that makes us like Him and distort it into that which must be hiding under fig leaves. What people miss in scripture is the threaded theme throughout of reversion to the childlike state before God – crucial to the experience of being Fathered by Him and to the experience of love, joy, and peace. It is positionally the only state that matters in relation to Him, and the one that religious people take pains to not tell you about.


However, the one you claim with your mouth as Lord has this to say about it to his own disciples,

“At that time the disciples came to Jesus and said, ‘Who then is greatest in the kingdom of heaven?’ And He called a child to Himself and set him before them, and said, ‘Truly I say to you, unless you turn back and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever then humbles himself as this child, he is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever receives one such child in My name receives Me; but whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in Me to stumble, it would be better for him to have a heavy millstone hung around his neck, and to be drowned in the depth of the sea!'”

Matthew 18:6


Let me ask you a few questions, then, to see if you understand. Are you able to cry? Are you able to shout with joy? Is your body, your instrument, allowed to play the music of your dance? Can you understand why it is for your greatest good to “turn back and become like children”? And do you know why it is a crime in heaven to cause one to stumble?

8. Jesus Had the Same Problem

Saturday, 19 October 2019

Dear Frazer,

Do you remember in our last conversation how I complained that people, and I should specify them as Christians, have similar reactions when I share what I believe I am learning from God from my heart? There is an instant numbness, a recoil, a dimming to the eyes that happens which, when taken with the words they speak, equates a quiet yet definite judgment along with a peculiar withdrawal. The very idea that I could be learning anything from God, without the accountability of men, is summarily rejected. Who am I, after all – a question that I ask every day.

It is peculiar and perplexing because I speak only what I have come to believe is the truth, and that in the face of lies that we tend to believe. Yet perhaps the extent of our deceptedness, or deceptivity, is greater than I had ever imagined. It is almost as though we want to perpetuate it as a natural state of being, a cocoon in which we sop up whatever nutrients we ate in the world when we were yet caterpillars, which equates a form of self-cannibalism in which we never get to escape the cocoon and morph into that marvelous butterfly with the varicolored wings – a completely different creature – all because we choose to feast on lies that we’ve come to cherish more than the truth that sets us free, the truth that would destroy the old you in light of the transformation of the one that comes, radiantly, in the wake of its glory.

At every turn when Jesus spoke and acted he encountered resistance. You can see it clearly in the Book of John in chapter 8. He is telling the people where his words come from and, as he stated also elsewhere, that he only speaks that which his Father teaches him teaches him to say. Also elsewhere, he teaches that God is the Father of each one of us, and that we are all brothers. Man has no place above another man in the kingdom of heaven. Such truths do not compute in the Carnival, which is born and maintained on hierarchies where those at the top soar and reap riches from the broken backs of those below.

Even a slight elevation of one man above another is both damaging and diminishing. It is damaging because it is inherently forceful; the weight of the man above crushes the one below, even if it is a subtle crushing. It is diminishing because if God is right and we are made in His image then each of us is equally in that image and the playing field among his children is level. To set yourself above another is essentially to take a bit of the seat of God and, even more horrifically, to get between the person below you and the God that he needs to be his, presently, that he may heal and grow. This is the fault of many a priest and pastor, but also of the majority of those who take no such titles.

On the other hand, Jesus came with an understanding of the way of the kingdom of heaven, the basileia as he called it, the mind of God in my estimation. He turned it all over; that the greatest in the kingdom shall be the least, that you must come as a child or not at all. The sense is that if you have strength you are to help those who have less. Place them above you. Undergird them. Make them more important than your self. Love those who are incapable of mirroring its return back to you.

All of which is a meal that, at the table of the Carnival, is made of ingredients that are not savory nor stomachable to it. However, you can clearly see that if we humans were to adopt the same attitudes as Jesus, the world would rapidly change.

Unfortunately, it would also lead to our demise, or at the very least a sequestering. Thus, the resistance from those with whom I have so earnestly tried to share. What the Carnival cannot eat, it kills.

Choose wisely.

Until next time, stay safe – but not too safe; have fun – but not too much fun.

-D

7. On Self-medication, Slavery, and Real Joy and Peace

Sunday, 25 August 2019

Dear Frazer,

I had to write to you again. I hope that you do not mind. This morning’s time in the woods was too rich to keep to myself. First, I sensed Him with me. Not just like hovering around, but inside and all around. Accompanying His presence is the abiding sense that, as he said, “apart from Me you can do nothing.” There is no thing I want to do apart from Him, because I have been there and seen that even the richest moments that the Carnival can give are like sand and ashes in the mouth in comparison to the cream and honey of the kingdom. I wish everyone knew this.

As we communed, and I lived in Him and He in me, He showed me that the drinking (or any form of self- medication) is simply an attempt to try and feel better – which isn’t bad in itself if we go to the right source. We subconsciously know that we aren’t designed to feel badly. Rather we are designed to run a specific way that propagates and multiplies life. At the tree, we traded in the “by design” for the cheapest of substitutes that have not ever worked for us for thousands of years. Drinking elevates the emotional state – which is depressed from not knowing God and therefore not knowing ourselves – temporarily and falsely. For those who fall into the trap that it is the best that can be had on earth and make it a “can’t do without,” it is a poison that is slowly killing their bodies.

The state that we are designed for, and the one that we seek in alcohol, drugs, sex, and games, is joy and peace. We may not conjure joy and peace on our own. There is a specific transaction that must occur for them to be in us and encompass us. Joy and peace come from a specific source. When that source is absent, or when we aren’t present in it, we are relegated to the pathetic state of a human who cannot attain joy and peace but who longs for it in the depths of his being but can never quite get there so why not just drug it up?

The problem with this – the way that seems right to a man – is that it is not only a lie but is also an inappropriate yoke to put on him. Any yoke that is not fitting is a form of slavery. What you yield to is your master. We are not born to be mastered, but to overcome every thing that seeks to enslave us. We are born to win. As God told Cain prior to the first recorded murder, “Sin is crouching at your door and its desire is to have you, but you must master it.”

In contrast to a yoke from the Carnival, and any yoke from the world system is not fitting and therefore a form of slavery even if it is only slight, there is the yoke of Jesus, who said, “Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

To say that His yoke is easy doesn’t capture the essence of its meaning. It is fit for use, or more specifically, fit to use on you. To contrast the yoke of the world, which chafes and often has a destructive element to it, Jesus’ yoke is supremely appropriate for any man, woman, or child that takes it upon themselves.

“You will find rest for your souls” means that your soul doesn’t have rest apart from His yoke. You will be healed of the chafing of the Carnival and its harnesses, and He will put you into a state of being wherein you are able to receive joy and peace from the source, which is God your Father, and He wants to inundate you with them.

I hope that this helps you, as it helps me.

May you have His joy and peace on your journey.

Sincerely,

-D

6. On Royalty

Saturday, 24 August 2019

Dear Frazer,

This morning at my Cathedral my mind was illumined with the richness of an aspect of my identity as God sees me. That is to say I had revelation about the truth of myself. Which means that if it is true of me that it is true of you, too. So, I am compelled to write to you that you may share in this understanding and, if the understanding becomes belief, share also in the glory and power of the nature that God restored to us in Christ Jesus – being beings made in His image and according to His likeness.

As I tromped through the woods I emptied and opened myself to Him, as is my custom. It is important to do this regularly, if not always, in order to hear Him even a little above the noise of the Carnival. Our Father has no coercive bone in his body. He will force no thing upon you, even if it is good. The Carnival is only content when your mind is clouded by its noise, that of the TVs, the Internet, the radio, and all the good people in your life who “know” and will tell you all that long and loudly until your head is spun out of reach of the truth, but who are really simply on the journey of discovery like you and me.

The words that come this morning concerning our identity are these, “royal warrior priest.” We aren’t made to be quivering, cowering, grotesque impostors who try and “nice” people into the kingdom of heaven. We aren’t made to be fellow liars of the masses in the sea of the Carnival for six days a week, until suddenly on Sunday morning, after the heated argument with the spouse and taking the anger out on the children, we arrive at a building where upon entering it we are suddenly transfigured into beings who are so smiley and glowing to the pastor that he would never believe that the other 98% of their lives are a gross sham. He actually believes that Sunday is enough to turn the Carnival up on its end and that his attendees are disciple of Jesus Christ, they who only practice a modicum of a fraction of a particulate of His teachings.

Such a scene decries the possibility of a “royal warrior priest.” An RWP is first and foremost royal, which means that such a person is royalty. But he is not royalty merely in the sense of being a prince and riding in the open carriage waving to the masses who have thronged the streets to catch a glimpse of his glorious visage that, without saying a word, shouts to the world, “I am so much better than you, my lowly peasants.” No, the royalty of the kingdom of heaven turns the “way that seems right to a man” on its end. Many things that are believed as accepted truth in the Carnival are actually the opposite of the reality of heaven. As Jesus said, “The greatest among you shall be your servant,” and, “The last shall be first and the first shall be last.”

To be a RWP royal is to have such authority on earth so as to represent the royal rule of heaven. It is to under gird those who haven’t yet realized the authority of heaven. Such authority comes through training, through being a disciple of Jesus. Authorization to enact heavenly law on earth is impossible when it is not yet written on your heart. Being a Christian who is still full of the wisdom and instruction of the Carnival, which is no wisdom at all and is instruction that the wise will learn to flee from, is a Christian who may indeed be saved but is actually working at cross-purposes with our Lord.

I shall have to get back to you on the rest of its meaning, that of warrior and priest. But until then I pray that you continuously realize His presence with you, every day, and the constancy of His love for you.

All for now, brother. Until next time I remain yours very sincerely,

-D

5. The One who wants your heart

Monday, 17 June 2019

Dear Frazer,

A father, or pater transliterated from the Greek, is the source from which you came. Given the right to be a child of God means that your source of identity, life, power, and way transferred from an earthly one to the heavenly one. You are absolutely not the same person that you were before that right was given. In fact, you are something other than human in the normal way that it is understood, something of heaven now but remaining upon the earth, a new creature.

One difficulty in establishing this relationship between heavenly Father and son or daughter is trust. I find this to be most difficult. I’ve not found one earthly person who is trustworthy, and this has damaged my ability to believe that God is trustworthy, whereas man is not.

To be intellectual about it is easy: of course God is trustworthy 100% because He is perfect and is love. I’ve tried to live on those intellectual assumptions and they simply don’t work. I may think it and act accordingly, but it doesn’t mean that I believe it. What is in the core of my being is more important than what is at the forefront of my mind. The mind may guide, but it is the heart that ultimately rules.

Twice I was approached in visions. The first was in Cambodia. I sat upon the tile floor at home. I was praying, not realizing at the time how full of anger I was – I thought it a normal state of being. I’d been angry my whole life. Being in Cambodia and working with Christians of varying religious backgrounds incited a slow, intense burn in me that contributed to my later downfall.

I poured my heart out to God. Suddenly, His hands were there before me. They were quite large and were cupped together with the palms up. I heard Him say, “Give Me your heart.” Then, I saw it in His palms, it was all broken, bruised, and bloody. I believe that He was making me conscious of His awareness of my inner state.

Years later, still in Cambodia but in a different home, another vision came. As happened often at the time, I awoke in the night hearing people walking in the living room. It was an old house from the French colony days and had hand-made floor tiles – most of which were loose and made clacking noises. Normally I’d get up to see what was happening and no one was ever there. On that particular evening, the “click-clack” sound of people walking in my living room was accompanied by an overwhelming feeling of terror along with a blanket of darkness that surrounded me to my left and to my right, filling the bedroom.

I decided that rather than getting up to assure myself that no one was there, I decide to trust God and cling to Him. I resolved to remain in bed and cling to God until He did something to fix the problem. I lay there for four hours – terrified, with darkness to my left and right, while the noises came from outside my door.

Suddenly, a corridor of light opened before me and I entered it. It led to a room entirely of light. I do not know how large it was as there was no reference points to perceive depth. It may very well have been infinite. Before me stood Jesus as he was in Revelation 1: very tall, wearing white robes with a golden sash, and his eyes were ablaze with an unearthly passion.

He held his hands out to me and said, “Give me your heart.”
I did and was suddenly flooded with an unspeakable joy and peace. It filled the very fabric of my being and no corner of my soul was left untouched. Then, just as suddenly as I was swept into the place of light I was ushered back to my body in my bedroom. There was darkness all around me to my left and right, the same terror was upon me, and the noises still came from outside my door.

But the peace and joy remained. I clung the rest of the night to Him in that state. When dawn arrived, I slumbered, and after one hour I awoke feeling as though I had hibernated for two whole weeks. The peace and joy stayed with me for two more weeks.

What I feel from the episodes is this: that the world we live in is one of darkness that we bring light to. Our heavenly Father is our source of peace and joy – which is our birthright, or re-birthright in the kingdom of God. Accessing it is up to us. We are the ones who must orient ourselves to Him, as He is ever fixing His eyes upon us and looks for the heart that is truly His.

Perhaps, my friend, He is looking upon you in this moment and is softly whispering to the Frazer that is still the child of your soul, “Give me your heart.”

If that is so, and I sense that it is, heed the voice.

All for now, brother. Until next time I remain yours very sincerely,

-D

4. Where the secret place of God is

15 June 2019

Dear Frazer,

He doesn’t want us to become anything other than that which we are. Notice I say that which we are, rather than that which we can be. There is a you that He already knows and treats you accordingly. However, how we portray and project ourselves to the world is false – and we’re convinced it’s true. For most of us, there are many layers of deception to work through to get to the actualized truth that is lived through our lives.

There is a you that you haven’t met, yet.

Only He knows who that is, for now.

And herein lies the part of Christianity that depends upon you: that you seek after Him to find out who you are. Hardly anyone talks about this, but God wants us to get close to Him and to stay there. To cling to Him. To listen to Him. To walk with Him. Learn from Him. Be with Him always. He loves you so much that He wants to be with you always.

Think on this:

“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.” (Psalm 91: 1)

It doesn’t say, “He who goes to church,” or, “He who follows such and such a pastor,” or, “He who ministers,” or even, “He who is good.” It says, “He who dwells.” Where you dwell is a sheltered space in which you spend most of your time and is where your life is centered. Everything flows from your dwelling. Your provisions are kept there. You invite loves ones to it. It protects you from harm and keeps you from the elements to which you would be otherwise vulnerable. You want to be there.

Where is the secret place of the Most High? Is it on a mountain in Israel? Inside the temple in Jerusalem? The cathedrals that you haunted in your youth? Who knows that if we found it we could be the wealthiest people on earth, because everyone would want to know where God is!

Jesus knew the secret place of God. He went to the woods and mountains to pray alone to Him, but that was not the secret place. He did that simply to quiet the other voices around Him – and we do well to follow Him in doing so. But He didn’t have to go away from men to access the Father, Jesus remained in constant contact with Him. As He said:

“The kingdom (basileia) of heaven is within you.”

Who knows that we aren’t waiting around to die to get to heaven? Who lives in the understanding that it is already in me? If this is the case, which would be the most amazing news that anyone could ever hear and receive, then why is it that people that know it are nowhere to be found in the masses – millions of Christians – who dwell in the world? Why is the “secret place” kept a secret?

If Jesus is correct, and man, it would be so incredible if He is, then we who claim to be His followers also have this capacity for constant contact with the one whom He said that we share with Him as heavenly Father. Would that not be wonderful? Would that not be good news indeed?

But wait, isn’t that the good news that Jesus brought to us? That the “secret place” of God is restored to us in Him? This business of dwelling and abiding, of which He spoke often, must be quite serious. And we are seriously, and easily, distracted. Do you know that Satan can in no way harm a Christian, but that he works to deceive and distract such a one? Attacks from the enemy of God and of truth are only to lie, to convince you or cause you to remain and abide in that which you are not – which is where we started in this letter.

But, to abide in the shadow of the Almighty – to be safe and sound under the protection of God Himself – requires that we dwell not in the world and think according to its beliefs, but to be baptized in fire of the Spirit of God and into the whole mind of Christ and to abide in it accordingly. Now the secret is out, that the secret place of God is inside of you and you may, should you choose, dwell there always.

This is the will of God and the work of a Christian: to agree with God (repent), destroy the works of the devil (lies), and to plant the seeds of truth in the world that the light of heaven shine forth to other men that they, too, may be restored to Him who loves them and waits for them to draw near.

All for now, brother. Until next time, yours very sincerely,

-D

3. The you that you haven’t met

15 June 2019

Dear Frazer,

He doesn’t want us to become anything other than that which we are. Notice I say that which we are, rather than that which we can be. There is a you that He already knows and treats you accordingly. However, how we portray and project ourselves to the world is false – and we’re convinced it’s true. For most of us, there are many layers of deception to work through to get to the actualized truth that is lived through our lives.

There is a you that you haven’t met, yet.

Only He knows who that is, for now.

And herein lies the part of Christianity that depends upon you: that you seek after Him to find out who you are. Hardly anyone talks about this, but God wants us to get close to Him and to stay there. To cling to Him. To listen to Him. To walk with Him. Learn from Him. Be with Him always. He loves you so much that He wants to be with you always.

Think on this:

“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.” (Psalm 91: 1)

It doesn’t say, “He who goes to church,” or, “He who follows such and such a pastor,” or, “He who ministers,” or even, “He who is good.” It says, “He who dwells.” Where you dwell is a sheltered space in which you spend most of your time and is where your life is centered. Everything flows from your dwelling. Your provisions are kept there. You invite loves ones to it. It protects you from harm and keeps you from the elements to which you would be otherwise vulnerable. You want to be there.

Where is the secret place of the Most High? Is it on a mountain in Israel? Inside the temple in Jerusalem? The cathedrals that you haunted in your youth? Who knows that if we found it we could be the wealthiest people on earth, because everyone would want to know where God is!

Jesus knew the secret place of God. He went to the woods and mountains to pray alone to Him, but that was not the secret place. He did that simply to quiet the other voices around Him – and we do well to follow Him in doing so. But He didn’t have to go away from men to access the Father, Jesus remained in constant contact with Him. As He said:

“The kingdom (basileia) of heaven is within you.”

Who knows that we aren’t waiting around to die to get to heaven? Who lives in the understanding that it is already in me? If this is the case, which would be the most amazing news that anyone could ever hear and receive, then why is it that people that know it are nowhere to be found in the masses – millions of Christians – who dwell in the world? Why is the “secret place” kept a secret?

If Jesus is correct, and man, it would be so incredible if He is, then we who claim to be His followers also have this capacity for constant contact with the one whom He said that we share with Him as heavenly Father. Would that not be wonderful? Would that not be good news indeed?

But wait, isn’t that the good news that Jesus brought to us? That the “secret place” of God is restored to us in Him? This business of dwelling and abiding, of which He spoke often, must be quite serious. And we are seriously, and easily, distracted. Do you know that Satan can in no way harm a Christian, but that he works to deceive and distract such a one? Attacks from the enemy of God and of truth are only to lie, to convince you or cause you to remain and abide in that which you are not – which is where we started in this letter.

But, to abide in the shadow of the Almighty – to be safe and sound under the protection of God Himself – requires that we dwell not in the world and think according to its beliefs, but to be baptized in fire of the Spirit of God and into the whole mind of Christ and to abide in it accordingly. Now the secret is out, that the secret place of God is inside of you and you may, should you choose, dwell there always.

This is the will of God and the work of a Christian: to agree with God (repent), destroy the works of the devil (lies), and to plant the seeds of truth in the world that the light of heaven shine forth to other men that they, too, may be restored to Him who loves them and waits for them to draw near.

All for now, brother. Until next time, yours very sincerely,

-D